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About Me
[Header likely to change because that's how art be]
Hey, I'm Gold.
This is my main blog, where I reblog art I like, complain a bit and occasionally attempt to communicate with people.
You can check out my art @goldcomet
#as you can tell by the header graphic design is NOT my passion and i don't know what colours are #anyway its a placeholder until i draw something better but i got commissions to do #anyway i thought i'd finally do this because it's rare for people to look in about and that's okay sometimes #dnr
3 notesThe VTuber I've been working on now also has a 3d model :D
versatility
Debut twitch stream on sunday
I'm excited
I've never done this kind of thing before and I know I'm only gonna have like 2-3 viewers but oh well! Thats how you start!
setting up my stream template ended up being a lot easier than i thought
#i've got the 2d model ready and rigged for V1 (improvements pending) #all expenses have been written down but right now don't need to buy anything while i don't earn anything #i will once i want to stream a steam game because i need to buy facerig on the vtubers account because software doesnt family share but #wow i can't believe how quickly this all came together
1 notebecomes a VStreamer to cope
appears here again after 200 years
listen i'm not very well versed in streaming, neither doing nor watching
what games are like... the popular ones that people are watching atm?
i'm so glad it's raining
#i hope summer is over now #also because like #i did not just work my ass off to get 170 in commissions so i could buy an exercise bike so I COULDN'T USE IT BECAUSE HEATSTROKE #i will use that bike #my motivation is that netflix only works on my phone so i probably can only watch it while using the bike #since i just get distracted by the computer otherwise
1 noteSkips one day of energy drink
My brain today: you will perish for your crimes
❄ a piece i did for Rhodes Island, a free Arknights fanzine!
i really enjoyed watching everyone's pieces come together, please check it out!!
you can download it from here!!
Me, showing non-covid symptoms: I'm dying, I went nowhere but I'm dying
seeing the protector of another system publicly lashing out to try and defend their system is
upsetting
upsetting that that level of distress and danger was felt.
#hello i would like the police to come and arrest me #i must have committed crimes against humanity #what the fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk #dnr #dont ask #i'm fine i just #man no one ever told me i would ever have to deal with people in this capacity and BOY was i ill prepared to #anyway disappears again because using this site right now gives me a little bit of a panic and paranoia attack #again i reiterate: i'm fine #i would like for things to stop happening though #i do NOT want to be the reason my friend group dissolves
two energy drinks... 3 caffeine pills... a bag of sweets...
the only other energy drinks are room temperature...
if i can just stay awake 53 more minutes
but that still doesn't guarantee i won't wake up at 5:30 again
can someone take me out with a sledgehammer
i would say a sleeping dart but that's too needle for me
i really do wonder how i have online friends sometimes
someone new is trying to talk to me and i'm like
:grimace-smile:
#i don't know how to do introductory conversation #so i end up just kinda... dropping it #it's nothing personal it's just like. can't do it. #also i think the question 'how are you' is genuinely starting to cause like an instant negative reaction in my brain #because i hate the question and it's insincerity and i never ACTUALLY know how i am #the best i can give you is a non-committal shrug and that gets like 'oh no whats wrong' #idfk i just don't know how i am man what else am i meant to tell you
2 notesthellere commented:
FINALLY you're doing the sensible thing and what I could have sworn I told you was the solution last week
yeah and that was what i attempted first but minus the caffeine pills
but i stlil wasn't managing past like, 8pm
with the naps and such i've managed to just break midnight so hopefully
combining their powers, plus not having a relentless yesterday, will give me the strength to survive today
todays plan: nothing mentally taxing
three days of 'i'll nap in the afternoon/evening so i can stay up later so i don't wake up at 5:30am' have failed
so today i'm gonna just take it easy, but take it
i didn't have an energy drink yesterday so i'll have two today and also some of my caffiene pills if i can 1. find them and 2. if they're not out of date
i am GOING to stay conscious if it fucking KILLS me
me: thinking about ordering some stuff from stimtastic, goes on their site, chooses a couple of cheap things i like
their header: yeah we’re not shipping out the US right now
you turn to look at me
i am laying face down on my keyboard
pluralsight keeps reminding me of how many courses i need to learn and my brain is like 'what the fuck you're trying to learn? get out'
#i'm glad you can favourite courses #i really need to learn to focus on one #i need to watch through html first and that's what i've been doing this month #might peer at CSS because while i UNDERSTAND that i can't actually write it and make it look nice #then javascript (which is my current goal that is seeming further and further) #then react? which was the first course i tried to look at before requirements popped up
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tfw you're having to watch a html course to do a javascript course and have it make sense but you already know everything that goes in <body> from fucking with tumblr themes so much but fuck all about <head> and therefore constantly having to switch between SUPER FOCUS and 'yeah w/e i know'
@ anon
nope
me, making adopts because a game i want is coming out in two days:
EMAIL FROM KOFI TWO SECONDS LATER: